It’s not even a month until the last day of classes, and just over a month until I write my last exam of my undergraduate career. Then BAM. I’m done. So. What then?
A couple weeks ago, I thought I had my plans; but things have changed, and so now my plans are changing. The thing is, I’m just not sure to what, or to where.
My job search has expanded and it’s kind of nerve wracking, not because I don’t trust that I’ll go where I’m supposed to, but because I just want to know, it’s hard not knowing where I’ll be in a months time. And I feel torn.
I’m looking for jobs in Saskatchewan because I have my family (including a new nephew in December :) !) and the graduate retention program that will pay off portions of my student loans each year I stay and work there.
I’m looking for jobs in Calgary because I have friends here who I know would be just a little happier if I stayed, not to mention two great roomies who’ve said they’d love if I could stay (which is actually great, especially since I said it would only be a 4 month thing and Meg gave me her workout room as my bedroom) and well the job possibilities here seem like they could be used a little more direct to my degree than in agriculture Saskatchewan.
I’m looking in Vancouver because, well Vancouver is epic. I have friends there who I would love to see more than just once a year, and it’s a city that breathes diversity. Sometimes when I go home to visit, I kind of do feel stifled, like everyone just wants to be like everyone else, and anything different…it’s bad. Vancouver, it’s like an explosion of everything. Plus, it’s got a wicked Chinatown ;) .
I’m looking in China, because, well, I can’t speak Chinese…and even just walking down the streets I’d get more practice reading characters than I do in a month here. I kinda like it there, but I’m still not sure if I’m ready to go back.
And then I’m looking anywhere; anywhere that is looking for someone who can speak (read, write and understand) Chinese, or has an international focus; after all, that *is* what I went to school for.
Basically I feel like I’m looking and looking. Reading, writing and applying and then looking some more. It’s kind of tiring. I feel ready to be done school, but I want to start something epic.
I was thinking today while applying for a job; and I said, I’ve been blessed to see more of this world than most people will in a lifetime, I’ve been blessed to experience more than most could dream of, and so I can’t settle for a career path that’s ordinary. I can’t just work at a bank and type numbers into a spreadsheet, I can’t. I need something that will challenge me to grow. I need something that will give me an opportunity to impact something. (and pay off my student loans ;) ) If I can’t get that right now and have to settle for one that pays the bills, I had better be in a place where I can do something more than be ordinary. And I know, in everything there is a plan, I know. But still. My head is so full of what-if’s…
But. Until then. I’ll finish researching this debate topic I have to know for tomorrow, I’ll write a business plan for a firm hoping to expand into China, I’ll do a strategic analysis of the movie industry, put in my 20 hours/week at my part time job and spend half my earnings on my 1/2 price clothes, and keep on keeping on. And maybe bake a pie. ;)
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