oh gosh. this week I was given a job offer, an offer that four months ago I would have accepted….but tomorrow will probably decline. It seems like such a simple ‘yes’ or ‘no’ kind of situation, do you want the job or not. Well, I want *a* job, and I’m real scared that maybe there might not be any other job offers in the near future, and I usually choose to say ‘yes’ to every opportunity because I believe it’s placed there for a reason…but this time, I can justify reasons for saying no.
Every time I think about my future I can’t see it in a ‘regular job’ doing ‘normal things’ just like ‘everyone else’ is doing. I can’t even deny that I know that my ability to speak/read/write Chinese is a gift that should probably be used in some capacity…but right now I’m trying to figure out in what kind of capacity that is.
Last year around this time I was given an opportunity to speak into the lives of a team of Chinese youths and their parents where I got to tell them about me, about my life, and about how I can feel God’s pull on my life. I told them that sometimes people misunderstand who God is, and what He wants. God wants the best for you, for me; He gives us talents, passions and dreams so that we can use them in His honour. He wants to see us love life, because when you love life, it’s contagious and His love spreads into other areas and it creates a mystery that makes people question how you are doing what you’re doing and why. This opens doors.
What I was trying to get across was that the passion we have in our hearts are there for a reason, and instead of pushing them down to be just like everyone else, we just embrace our God given gifts and try to use them and grow them. We shouldn’t just live a passionate life in our spare time; weekends and evenings, rather we should pursue our passions. everyday all the time
Last week I received an email from a friend I met last winter in Russia, at first he just asked how I was and where I was currently living, so I told him I’m pretty okay, in Canada, just trying to figure our where/what I should be doing…and this is what he told me:
When you live a life that honours God, when you obey His word and live a life of excellence and integrity,God’s blessings will chase you down and overtake you..God will help you because you love Him.
I kind of needed to hear that. So that’s what I’m trying to do.
Brenna. This is good stuff. thank you
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